I BELONG TO ME

2010-11-24T18:48:00.000+08:00

Goodbye blogger
Hello twitter & tumblr =)

2010-11-14T09:30:00.003+08:00

Nice??haha....

Oh well I was offered a job.
A kickstart to my career.
After 3 years i'm off to further my studies.
Will undergo my training for 3 months at NIE.
Hope to see my friends there..
It will be a nerve racking experience.
New environment and all.
Will organise a flea market with the hamlaus.
Another first-time attempt.
With me everything is first time.haha!!
haiz dont know what else to write....
i'm off to Jaybeee lah

2010-11-01T15:15:00.002+08:00

I love this video!!!boomboomboom.....
This is the only one video that Katy Perry did without being cheesy and corny.haha!!!

Last weekend was my second cousin's wedding.
I was astounded when i first entered the ballroom.
It was so much better than Chevron or what so ever ballroom i've been.
the ballroom was astonishing grand and i would love to have my wedding there
hmmm in ten or maybe 20 years time...haahh
So her theme was fairytale but i didn't understand why she incorporated bangra dance to it.
but end up the troupe didn't turn up.buih.
But afterall i can say that her dream wedding came true =)
So its the sch hols and i'm bored.
Mum asked me to cook but i'm like "what!!"
I dont noe how to coook..
but still i cooked.heh
just a simple dish.omelete and veg.haha!!
will cook up something more enticing tmrw.

2010-10-28T23:13:00.003+08:00

Saying goodye is the hardest part.
I've begin to grow accustomed to them but sadly i had to let them go.
I'm so touched when my students gave me a notebook of well wishes.
I teared abit reading their 'we'll miss you' and 'hope to see you again next year' wishes.
damn.DAMNdamn.
I realised my weakness -I'm easily attached to someone in the shortest time.
The heart will grow fonder over time.
I'm glad i met them;the nonsensical kiddos...haha!!!
Hopefully i make a difference in their life.

2010-10-25T18:29:00.002+08:00

If the banks have a 'non-withdrawal' service,i would love to sign up for it..
OH well I think i spent my hard-earned money on something useful...
Anyone with me??
Although it created a big hole in my pocket i'm satisfied.
Its called a long term investment.That's what i said when i first got my Creative MP4.
I even got the cheek to say i shall hand it down to my next generation haha!!!
So we roamed and combed the town and finally got it at Funan after so much consideration and pondering.
No hesitation and then i go bammm 'i'll take it'

Heading down to Little India later.
No not to find my prospective husband-to-be (that should be hayati) haha!!!!
butttt to find a Punjabi suit for my auntie wedding...yeeehaaa!!we doing it the bhangra way..

Soon i'll be in my stress mode.no!!i'm already Stressed OUT!!!
Why???for various reasons
1) Dialogue with the P yup the big P @work
i have no idea what we'll be discussing.
2) Still no result from the interview
3) Still no result from the sch
bummer =(
on the brighter side,
I Can't wait for my ice-cream buffet...
and I LOVE HIMYM
go figure =))

2010-10-14T22:53:00.002+08:00

boooooooooooooo...haha!!
the interview went quite well...
i just talked crap haha oh well
i'm nervous so every word that came out from my mouth
is so flustered and jumbled up.
i dont think i understand what i said.haha
but they seemed to understand as they were nodding their head.
they better understand or else...............
first time ever being interviewed by 4 panels.
quite nerve racking but i'm glad its over.
now i need to wait for another 2 weeks for the result.
met up with jojo joget and we had lunch at thechickenrice shop.
bloody pissed with the service but served them right as they forgot to key in my order.
hah thus, i just paid for my iced milo but not my set meal.
karma bebey!!

2010-10-11T22:47:00.003+08:00

I didn't know that marking can be such a pussy...
It makes my head spin round and round...
Imagine i have not one but 5 stacks of pper 1 to clear by this week.
And their answers can make me die of heart failure...choi!!
Well i guess my weekend getaway to JB cum shopping with the cousins is worth it.
photos up on fb.
Managed to eat Nandos's which i've been craving so much and not forgetting A&W-who can resist their curly fries...
Wish me luck for my upcoming interview this Wed.hehe..
keeping the suspense =)

2010-10-05T21:39:00.003+08:00

This bothers me. Just because you’re way senior that doesn’t mean you can say those words. Teaching has been my ambition since young so it disappoints me when an educator said those words that I dread to share it here. His words stings and I pity his students for having someone who doesn’t believe in their ability to succeed.

On a happier note I’m still can’t believe that I ………

After countless of lessons and money spent I achieve satisfaction.Alhamdullilah.

To be in this euphoria state it takes courage and time not forgetting the endless criticism I faced. Calling me lousy, gundu etc.Although it hurts my feeling, I’m sensitip you know haha!!! I’m glad it’s over for life. Now I can focus on other things. Next up- wearing that graduation gown holding segulung ijazah.Insyallah =)

2010-09-08T23:14:00.005+08:00

I'm need to watch this. The loveliest couple in Hollywood....Ahh!!
Oh my Justin Long is sooo adorable.
Well, Ramadhan is ending soon and i feel very sad.
This year it seems to pass very fast.
I'm going to miss breaking fast with my families and friends.
Hopefully Insyallah next year Ramadhan will be so much better than this =)
Been occupying myself doing housework and helping mum baked
just to forget that nasty incident albeit it is still fresh in my head.
toodles.........

2010-09-07T11:22:00.002+08:00

I've reached my lowest point in life.
I was scolded and was called a !@#$%^&
at that point i really feel like crying.but i tahan cos sesungguhnya aku sedang berpuase.
even on the way home in the bus his words kept replaying in my head till i teared.
I guess i'm just too sensitive.
I want the old me back;who is self-motivated and postive thinking.
I remember during my N and O level days where i pasted words of encouragement
everywhere on my table just to remind myself that its ok to be in the normal stream and one day i can also succeed in life.
I guess now its difficult to find the old me after going thru so many things in a year.
rejection after rejection...downfall and all
Oh Allah please help me find the correct path with your guidance.
Right now i'm going to sleep.
I'm just being me.
When i encounter problems or feeling down, i just prefer to sleep and hope that the problem will go away
when i wake up.
But i doubt so.

2010-09-03T17:15:00.002+08:00

A few more days to Raya and i've yet to clean my room.
plain lazy,no energy,massive migraine,allergic to dust bla bla bla....
thank god i have a very hardworking father..so he took some time off from work and cleaned the living room...hehe!!!
Lately people keep commenting that i seem to lose alot of weight.
So usually people ask you to shed off some excess babatss but its the opposite for me.
Instead, i was asked to gain weight by next year.how ridiculous.i have small stomach hence the small portion of food i consume :/
In fact,I'm perfectly fine with my weight.Its just the height issues
Cant they just come out with something to make me grow taller.
pill or milk....
Seriously, i have issues...so many issues

2010-08-25T23:20:00.003+08:00

These days i keep having massive headache and throbbing head...MEYAMPAH!!!
add on to this burden is the massive workload not just teaching but also doing admin work
i guess i've been exploited hahaha!!
so not worth my meager wage.
if not because of my passion i could easily quit.

Today breakfast i tried something new....
Manhattan Fish Market...
overall the food is enticing and worth my money =))
intend to shop for raya stuff but heavy stomach and throbbing head doesn't make shoPping a good option so we headed home.
Before that we went to ahem ahem to enroll myself
inyallah i should be getting the result in Nov
Oh!!my mother thought me and ahem ahem are ahem ahem!!
wth!!!not in a zillion years i swear!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
here's my problem.....
I love but at the same time i loathe FB...
some ppl are just toooooo overly proud of their achivements.
I clearly understand they should be proud about their achievements;yes they deserved it
but must they reallllyyyyyyyyyy post it on FB as if wanting the whole world to know??
Someday i shall post a picture of myself pregnant!!!and i'm sooo proud of it!!
haha!! proud for the wrong reason...
CHOI AHK!!but yeah you know what i mean.
dalam Islam pun tak suruh umatnya bersikap RIAK
siape makan cili dier terasa pedas
OK im done with my rantings now off to bed =))

2010-08-18T17:17:00.002+08:00

Today is the most challenging day ever
cobaan...cobaan...
I was damn thirsty and hungry and nearly lost my voice early in the morning
why??
cos the first class is the most obnoxious class you can ever imagine..
Screaming at the top of my lungs trying to get their attention.
Another cobaannnn
glad it's over.
this year i 'm not into the mood to raye
not sure why.
maybe cos it's still too early to anticipate raye or because there're no raya songs been played on the radio yettt....
I need a set of new baju kurung, a new pair of heels and bag and blingz blingz...hahaaha!!!
there's going to be a hole in my pocket soooney
Well, i still dont know whether i should pay zakat or give collection money to my cousins since i'm working now...
I bet this year my collection money will menjunam like hell...haha!!padan muke tue bangke...
cobaannn....
oh the best part of the fasting month is that i got to watch ketuk-ketuk ramadan @ RTM 1.
yeah call me eccentric but i love sheila rusly.
oh and recently i went to MTV.com to watch disaster date...awesomeeee pranked show everrrr..
go watch ...
my stomach is growling again =(

2010-08-11T23:55:00.002+08:00

A bad way to start my first day of fasting.
throbbing head, migraine and lack of sleep cos i have to wake up at 5 to sahur then off to work.
almost barf in the bus but i'll make it home
the funny part is that I was marking scripts when my head fall off and hit the table cos i accidently felt asleep.
haha!!!very paiseh....
I think the momentum is abit slow this year or maybe for this week since its only the first day.
SELAMAT BERPUASE!!! =))

2010-08-08T19:41:00.004+08:00

fasting month is coming!!i can't wait
time really flies
can't wait to go shop for all the necessary stuff and breakfast with the lovely people =)
and so i went jb again.
I usually have bad feeling when i enter a hair salon.
I fear the hairstylist does not meet my expectation,what if the hairstyle doesn't suit me etc etc
haha!! but i guess this time my hair is ok.
I just need a few weeks to let it look natural....haha!!
and guess what the shop next to the hair salon was raided by the immigration officers.
why??cos they've been selling pirated cds and dvds.weird.
but dude that's not the only shop lah...there're alot more of those shops haha!!
I just thot of buying their cds but too bad =(
Armed with black rubbish bags and camera they began to ransack the shop.
I wonder if they caught the owner... sooo freaky.

....'But I'm a tell you what true love is. Love is not what you see in the movies. Its not the ecstasy, its not what you see in that scene, you know what I mean? I'm telling you right now, true love is sacrifice. Love is thinking about others before you think about yourself, love is selfless not selfish. Love is God and God is love. Love is when you lay down your life for another, whether for your brother, your mother, your father or your sister, its even laying down your life for your enemies, that's unthinkable, but think about that. Love is true. Think.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, it always perseveres. Love never fails. Love is everlasting, its eternal, it goes on and on, it goes beyond time, love is the only thing that will last when you die, but ask the question why? Do you have love?
Jaeson Ma - Love (feat. Bruno Mars)

I just love these extracts
how true and beautiful =)

2010-08-07T00:12:00.002+08:00

My 21st birthday was a small affair yet a memorable one.
Stopped by Vivavox before heading to Sakura for dinner with the girls.
My first time there...they say there's always a first time...so cliche.
oh and tmrw is my virgin JB trip will the peeps...
Well i shall post a slideshow of the pictures we took..haha!!
The national day celebration in sch is soOOO dumb/worse everr...
how i wish i was a student again....singing every national day songs with a spirit of patriotism
unlike them.
haiz..reminising the time in HYSS and MI.

2010-08-01T00:09:00.003+08:00

Jangan sekali-kali kite menyalahkan ape yang berlaku kepada ibu bape kite.
Kaye ke mereka, miskin ke mereka itu hak mereka.
Sebagai anak kite harus berusaha untuk merubah kehidupan kedua ibu bape kite
Semerah Cinta Stilleto

2010-07-30T22:50:00.004+08:00

Although its a Friday my first class didnt go well.
A student of mine started off her day by being grumpy and showing me attitude.
Its as if the whole world caused her to pull a long face.Blaming me for being directly sarcastic.whateva!
When i give them homework i expect them to hand it in on time.But not her....when i'm being sarcastic she got angry.wth is wrng with kids nowdays.i don't remember doing that to my teachers in secondary sch.im like whatever.buat bodoh and malas nak layan
dont think you're in one of the top class it give you the right to show me that kind of attitude.
I know its inappropriate for me to write negative comments about my students but they really need a wake up call.
After sch i was expecting 4 students to come and collect their worksheet, again they dissapoint me.
Waited for them for half an hour macam buah tak jatuh.On Monday they'll get it from me.
They really want to make the birthday girl an angry girl !@##$%

Speaking of angry,i'm quite dissapointed/angry at a certain someone.why??no point elaborating on it.she never and will never change.
it totally change my perpective of her.TOTALLY!thanks but no thanks.
I'm aware that being human we all have flaws but still we should make things right by taking the initiative.
Its about being proactive in a relationship/friendship.ahk whateva lah...
The most important thing is that i'm surrounded with great people.one's who accept me for who i am,congrates me when i encounter success and console and give me words of wisdom when i fall.
Well, since i'm reallyreallyreally passionate about teaching, i'm going all out to achieve my dream.
Although its a longer route its going to be special cos its my way;Zahidah's way of doing things.
The best thing i'm being different.heh.

On the bright side, tmrw i'm going to the Zoo!!!and coming Monday,picnic and kite flying..woohoo!
Lately i've been listening to oldies songs like barbara streisand and brian hayland.i guess it got to do with the age.haha!!
But again im not that young anymore.early twenties .yucks sound so wrong.i miss being 16;young and innocent.haha!!
cheerios.... =))

2010-07-23T15:32:00.002+08:00

my road to success shall be bitter sweet.

2010-07-14T20:15:00.002+08:00

despicable me is awesome....hilarious and adorable.
most of the time i was laughing non stop
although we got to sit 2 seats from the screen.you bet i got to strain my neck but
hell yeah its worth the money.

well work is all about marking their scripts and do the daily planning of lessons.
it can be tiring but its my resposibility.
I have a confession to make.
I hate one of my class..no hope in them at all with their belligerent behaviour in class.
I got to shout till i almost lost my voice.i dread going to their class.
seriously i really had no idea what is their purpose in life.
sometimes i pity them but i think they does not deserve my sympathy at all.
i do feel a shame of my own race.seriously their behaviour is inappropriate.
i fear how the future generation of my race would fare especially if i have my own children, nieces or nephews.

btw the new national day theme song is soooo sucky..
the tune is soo soft showing no sense of patrioism at all.
most importantly it does not make my hair stands like a sense of home unlike the old national day songs.
almost fell asleep upon hearing it.
boringggg.
off to complete my markings.zZzZzZzZzzZzZ...............

2010-07-09T16:10:00.001+08:00

best michael jackson medley by far...this guy is so talented.
listen and be amazed

2010-07-05T21:12:00.002+08:00

Letters to Juliet is awesomeee!!!
the story line is romantic with a lil humor
the lead actor is so charming and Amanda Seyfried is pretty
I dont mind watching it again.
=))
In the meantime i've yet to finish my lesson plan for tmrw.
bummer.....

2010-07-03T10:33:00.002+08:00

Finally its the weekends.and its gg to be a long weekends for me
cos on monday its a school holiday in lieu of youth day.
this week seem long for me
i guess due to the new environment at work.
So far my new work place is adaptable but i miss my primary school kids so badly.
teaching in secondary is way different;not forgetting their body size over towered my petite body.
haha!!!and they are only sec 2 and 3.can u imagine.
I got to work independently and it's quite a challenge for me cos i'm use to be spoon fed.
well welcome to the working world zahidah.
Yesterday had my first practical lesson and my instructor told me to drive on the road.
wah!i almost had a heart attack.not in my entire life i've drive on the road.other road users
overtook me cos i was hogging the road.wah!!first lesson and i feel like giving up...it was too way tedious furthermore,my instructor is so cina..sometimes i cant make out
what he's trying to say...mampos.we go round and round bukit gombak carpark until i got headache.
I had problem holding the steering wheel,seeing the mirrors and keeping the car in lane.i go left right left right..and it rained ytd...haha!!!what an experience and the first lesson cos me a BOMB!!
now i'm officially broke until i get my pay =((
i hope this experience is worth my time, money and effort after getting my license.
off to town to celebrate tara 21st bdae party.then maybe i'll catch a movie..hehe!!

2010-06-27T16:29:00.002+08:00

massive headache!!!
last week been spending my days gg to town till i'm broke cos
in a week i got to top up my exlink card 3 times
gosh transportation in Singapore is freaking expensive@@#$@#$@#%
have yet to register for my pdl @!$#$@#% more money needed.damn....
aniwaes i'm kind of excited and nervous for Monday.
New environment new colleagues.hopefully the students not that dajjal.
cos i heard lots of stories/rumours about that school.
so far the ppl there are way more friendlier as compared to the previous school
well we shall see.
next month insyallah i'll be gg to KL to settle some stuff
hopefully everything turns out well.
well i guess i take what life gives me and turn it into somthing sweeter =)
looks like god have greater plans for me....hehe!
off to grandma huz to eat tulang!!!

2010-06-22T00:00:00.002+08:00

I'm bored hence the 24 Random Question.....

Questions!
1. Do you have any pets?

Sadly no,but if i could have one,a cat is preferred

2. Name 3 things that are physically close to you.
House keys, handphone and mp3 player
3. What's the weather like right now?
Hot and humid
4. Do you drive? If so have you crashed?
Soon...for now no crashed touchwood
5. What time did you wake up this morning?
9.30.my mom called just to wake me up
6. When was the last time you showered?
2hrs ago
7. What was the last movie you saw?
Shrek 4 in 3D
8. What does your last text message say?
oi mlm ni spain vs honduras.Pkl 230pg
9. What's your ringtone?
Telephone by Lady Gaga
10. Have you ever been to a different country?
Australia and Malaysia =(
11. Do you like sushi?
woohoo!!spicy salmon is my favourite.
12. Where do you buy your groceries?
I don't.My dad does the groceries shopping.
13. Have you ever taken medication to help you fall asleep faster?
Yes,only when i'm sick.
14. How many siblings do you have?
3
15. Do you have a desktop computer or a laptop?
Both
16. How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
21 =(
17. Do you wear contacts or glasses?
Both.Contacts when i'm outside,glasses when im at home.
18. Do you color your hair?
Yes.highlighted it recently
19. Tell me something you are planning to do today.
Since its already night time i'll most probably do some reading before gg off to bed.
20. When was the last time you cried?
After receiving my A'level results
21. What is your perfect pizza topping?
Cheese and chicken chunks
22. Which do you prefer-hamburgers or cheeseburgers?
Cheeseburger
23. What is your eye color?
Blacky brown
24. Can you taste the difference between Pepsi and Coke?
No.Both taste the same for me.

2010-06-18T23:43:00.002+08:00

Imagine while serving a customer,suddenly your phone rings
coincidently, it was lady gaga ringtone;telephone....

"Hello, hello, baby;
You called, I can't hear a thing.
I have got no service
in the club, you see, see…
Wha-Wha-What did you say?
Oh, you're breaking up on me…
Sorry, I cannot hear you,
I'm kinda busy"

that's what happen to me.
while laying the utensils for my customers,my phone rang and
suay suay the ringtone match my situation.
stupid me forgot to silent it.i cant answer the call so it kept ringing.
the customer was teasing me and i was sooo paiseh.
the customer was like 'ahk boyfriend calling ahk.but you're busy'
i'm like 'watever'....

well i passed my theory test..woohooo!!!
finally!!and i passed the interview..i guess.
the interviewer was quite intimidating and i was nervous but thank
god it went smoothly =)
a great day afterall.
you guys should/must watch 500 days of summer.
the soundtracks are awesome,there's humor and best of all the cute actor!!
go watch!!!!

2010-06-08T21:22:00.004+08:00

working never been this good.
though there's politics but which workplace had totally no conflicts right???
a couple of good company and food would spice it up.
oh now i noe how to make mocha iced tea!!may sound dumb to you but whatever....

as i'm writing this,my grandma's sister is at her death bed.
she went to the hospital earlier today but the doctor said there's nothing they could do but to let her go home.like wth!!
doctors are meant to save live not surrender it to god alone
asshole lah.
i hate this feeling...
death scares me.
how funny humans can be...
gonna watch 500 days of summer.
thanks to Joen =))

2010-06-03T18:40:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was indeed a memorable experience for me.
Its was an impromptu decision.
The four of us headed down to Fort Caning to watch Sheila on 7 and D'masiv.
Even though i'm not their biggest fan but it give a whole new of experiences.
Hahaha!!the guitarist threw his guitar pick and guess wat, it landed right infront of me.haha!!
my reaction: as if i've found a diamond.a very epic scenario.
wonder if i sell it on ebay can it reach a million dollar??hmmmm...
ahk watever it is its worth my $$$ =))
and what really irks me is that pretty girls who smoke.
in the middle of the concert,they still got the cheek to smoke and i have to inhale that
damn smoke..wah...spoilerrr.nak aksyen terror lah konon.
i'll bet 50 years down the road they look like a haggard even worst than Hagrid with children in tow...watever it is i enjoyed the performance so ooo muchhh!!!!
wooohoooo!!!

2010-06-01T00:51:00.003+08:00

hello hello hello
i'm belo...
crap.
Its the school hols.
So i got a job at this cafe for two weeks before gg off to Malacca.yeahhh!!!
balik kampung....
tomrw will be my first day.im kidda of nervous.
its so me.when i first started teaching i got soo nervous speaking in front of the
class with 30 over students.as time pass by it turns out well
and i begin in fall in love with it =)
hopefully tmrw turns out well...
oh anyone needs a job just msg me k.
the place really in need of manpower.

2010-05-23T00:05:00.004+08:00

lately i've been rambling about my sucky life
bear with me k.

so yeah i got rejected.
i guess life isn't fair.
so unfair!!!
now i'm frantically thinking about what to do with my life.
i may look happy on the outside but in my head i'm processing and thinking.
thinking hard at all the possible options that are available for me.
i wish i could turn back time.
i wish i hadn't taken this route.just go SP take my dream course;mass comm.
but they say restu ibu bapa itu penting
so i heed their advise.not that i blame them.
if can i want to blame the whole world except for myself.
haha!!ridiculous me....
i cant bear reading the newspaper where poly graduates
got a place in local reputable unis straight after they graduate.
damn.
what i noe is that working life is soooooooo not for me.
i still want to study.in fact i miss studying,staying up at night,drinking coffee and redbull
to stay awake
this sux

that aside.
we went seoul garden to celebrate joen's 21st
watched shrek in 3D.
My first time ever..abit excited but is was such a letdown.
the 3d spec is blurr n the effect not that good.
the show is ok 3/5.
sister gg to japan
screw her....

another funny encounter with a student

cikgu 'soft toy' dalam bahase mlyu ape ehk?
ahk ahk hmmm....
cikgu cancel 't' jadi mainan lembu.saye nk mainan lembut bukan mainan lembu.
(so basically he did a direct translation soft toy=mainan lembut)
at this instant i laugh.cant seem to control my laugh.
alah awak letak je kad permainan.

hahaha!!!
fail ahk gini nak jadi cikgu.

2010-05-13T22:50:00.002+08:00

the workload is increasing.
marked their scripts which is a very daunting job why??
cos their scores is damn pathetic furthermore its their mother tongue
like wth!!
not only that,i still have to key in their scores and shade the oas till i see circles everwhere i go.
nak pegy jamban pun tak sempat.aiseh man.
its a tough job.many responsibilities not only to the students but to the school
lucky i don't have to do admin job.
pity the teachers =(
i will soon fell into depression.why!!??
cos i kept thinking and worrying about the damn uni's results.
most of the night i will cry myself to sleep.asking why??whose fault is it.
if i have put in the extra effort i wont be in this state.
I guess life isn't fair.there's so much i want to right here but.....
aiya whatever is it i'm happy for those who have successfully gain a place in the uni's
with/without much effort =))

2010-05-06T22:10:00.003+08:00

the kids are seriously testing my patience.
totally spoilt my day.
furthermore,i dont have heaps of patience.
Yes they can be adorable,naughty and hyper active at times but blur as
a sotong i can't take it.
2 of the kids didnt put up their hands during their listening compre exam
when they have a missing page.
darah menyirap betol.
I checked with them thrice mind u 3 times and ask them to put up their hands
but they didn't.
I'll make sure for their bahasa paper the same thing wont happen again.
I wont let 'banana fruit two times'.errggg!!!!!!!!!!
agaknye nielah cabaran nak menjadi seorang guru
haprak ._____.
i want o watch Iron Man 2 sooooo
badly.but no one can accompany me
pathetic ryte =(
never mind lah
i think one of this days i go watch alone.
haha!!even better.no distraction.

2010-05-01T11:41:00.002+08:00

hell ya...!!
its going to be a long weekend for me.
thanks to labour day.haha!!
well since its a holiday,wedding invitations spring out like nobody business.
today alone my parents had to attend 4 wedding invitations,
i dont think they would go all 4 maybe 3??haha!!no idea how their
stomach can handle so much nasi briyani.
anyhoo later going to town with the girlies.shopping maybe??hmmm...
btw,no work means i can rot at home and indulge myself in this book.
a friend told me it had a sad ending and i got to read to find out more.
i think this is a romantic weird thing of love story since the hero could time travel.

2010-04-28T10:48:00.003+08:00

I'm so tireeeddd!!Never in my life i feel so lethargic.
Its only Wednesday....I want Friday to come soonerr.
Btw my sister said Monday they have no school but i'm not so sure about it =(.
cross my finger that it's a holiday in lieu of labour day.
work has taken its toll.tonnes of marking and things to do with the kids
before their midyear..
Uni admission is also killing me...it is taking too damn looooooonnnnnng
and my patience is on the brink of breaking down.damn.
I miss my friends,cousin and grandma/grandad.....and that someone
ok thats random.

2010-04-20T13:02:00.001+08:00

I just cant stop watching this video.
over and over and over again =))

2010-04-14T11:54:00.002+08:00

Weekends was well spent.
Off to West Coast to fly kite but i just gave up when my kite
wont fly.We even have to seek help from this pak cik who are kind enough to lend us
his 30++ kite strings.
Seriously speaking now im not a big fan of flying kites because it takes heaps of
patience to fly that damn thing.
Today will rott at JP.Been wanting to try the cinnamon melts after the
big hooohaa from one makcik and maybe sushiessss.
Oh i just hate to teach in the morning.y??
stomachache will hit me and i feel the urge to do business but then i cant
do it in the staff toilet cos it was so small that i afraid the smell of my poopoo would linger around for quite sometime b4 anyone comes in.haha!!
hate thinking bout not able to do business in school.
got to teach with a cramp face
i bet the kiddos would notice that.yikes.
chris kuzneski here i come!!!
thanks Hayatiii!!

2010-04-07T10:57:00.003+08:00

Last weekend i met up baby Elma and mummy.
Gosh!!she was so cute and so fragile cos she's barely a month old.
When i kiss her she smell of baby smell if u get what i mean.
On Sunday,we went to Labrador Park cos uncle had the craving to fish
Waited for 4 hrs but he only manage to get one small fish.
haha!!how pathetic.photos up in fb =))
this coming weekend the cliques intend to go kite flying.haha!!
will be my first time although when i was younger,i used to play kites with my
cousin and uncle.can't wait!!

falling out of love is so heartbreaking especially if u
dearly love ur other half.
I hope my love life wont be sooo complicated and it dont have to go thru
so many breakups cos i wish to marry my first love.yikes so corny
haha!!

2010-04-03T12:41:00.000+08:00

can't wait!!

2010-04-03T11:36:00.002+08:00

I feel so down right now.
I stumbled upon someone blog and found out that a local uni already asked
..... to come down for an interview.
bummer
Suddenly my hp hunting on the net turns sucky
I think i don't deserve anything in this world esp from
my parents cos i'm being unfilial.shit i hate this feeling
I'm putting a brave front though at the back of my head i did tonnes of
thinking esp on my future.
Part of me suggest that i'm gonna make it just
to make me feel good but another half makes me feel worse.
damn.

2010-03-29T20:23:00.003+08:00

Currently i've been reading this book and
it captivate me especially the words used seem so peaceful.
And it's from a guy perspective on love and sacrifies
A very sensitive guy indeed.
I wonder whether such guy exist in reality??hmmm
Is that what they call true love??I don't noe '______'
I didnt manage to watch the movie and had no intention of doing it.
I rather read than watch the movie.
It enhance my imagination better as i immerse myself in the book.Furthermore,
i fear the movie does not live up to its book expectation like twillight
which i had read all the series and promise myself not to watch it on the big screen
as it sucks.
It seems to shattered my impression of Edward and Bella.

Moving on,last weekend we went to the flea market and i went craaazzzzyyy!!
Bought lots of stuffs which doesn't cost a fortune =)
Put our bargaining skills to work, brave the crowds and we're ready.
The prices were astonishingly slashed when nearing closing time.
After that we're dead tired but satisfaction could be seen in our faces.
Before that i went to attend a talk conducted by the Malay Teachers Union.
Whoa!!it opens up my eyes about studying overseas.
It benefitted me alot and i felt at ease with the decision
i'm gg to make in the future =))
On Sunday the family went to Adam Road to taste the so called
'the best nasi lemak in singapore'
Apparently,it is overrated.Nothing so special.
Nasi lemak in jurong is still the best.

2010-03-24T21:21:00.002+08:00

haha!!what a day!!funny encounter with the kids

so i took the pri 6 kids. they totally overgrown me.

esp the boys.they're towering me and their uniforms seem like crying for help.

haha!!too small for them.i bet its the largest size.

going -to-be-minahs also exist lor.

whatever it is i love my job!!its my childhood ambition

and here i am doing what i love most =))

Weekends!!!!pls be here Fasst!!

Sat meeting the girls for a flea!!

can't wait can't wait!!

Oh looks like i'll be gg back to MI ZzZz!!

for the malay scrabble thingy aiyo i thought i wont be stepping into that school

again but fate wants me to..damn!

lucky the girls will be thre too =))

gonna iron my clothes for tmrow!!chiaw

2010-03-20T12:45:00.002+08:00

The movie was ok but i dont quite understand

what the characters were talking/mumbling

at the first half of the movie.

Not that i'm an idiot who doesn't understand Eng but

they spoke too profoundly.I had to strained my ears

to make out the words.if only there are Eng

subs and it gets abit emotional at the end.

nope i didn't tear but almost hehe!!

Why must the school hols ends soo soon??

Mon i got to get back to work =((.

I prefer lazing around at home with a

book and a hot chocolate with me especially in a cold rainy weather

heaven man...

There's a flea at 8Q i dont noe or even heard of the place before but nah

i'm gonna miss it.

i overspent this month buying clothes and more clothes

and now there's a hole in my wallet and heart.=(

2010-03-17T12:13:00.000+08:00

2010-03-04T23:54:00.002+08:00

the day is finally here.

reflecting my 3 years in MI,i wonder whether its the right path.

i noe its too late to turn back time but i'm hoping for the best tmrw.

i'm kicking away all the negative thoughts and dont even think about the worst cos i noe it will affect my daily life.

most importantly i noe what i want in life.

a decent degree and a career i'm most passionate about.

i'll be receiving two results in a day tmrw.

i wonder if i could cope with it.praying that god will make my day.

speaking of making my day,someone put a smile on my face unexpectedly.

=))

2010-03-02T11:23:00.004+08:00

'My name is Zahidah and i'm not a terrorist'

haha!!sounds familiar??

makin a trip to town just to watch hindustan...

which was cool =)

Watched 'my name is khan' with the makcik.

the plot was ok.some tak masuk akal scene and the real obama looks wayy better.

haha!!!

i'll rate it 3.5/5

After watching the news on the release of A level result , i had a dream.

i was at the centre stage and a tcher annouced the date i instantly began to cry.tried to control my tears but i couldn't.felt a lump in my throat.i was damn scared.oh and i dreamed a girl cried non stop and being consoled by her friends.worse than me.

scary shito...

whatever it is i'm hoping for the best this friday.my weekends will depend on the results.

well results aside i think i'm back to being jobless =)

the school have yet to call me for the past 4 days =(

it partly good and bad.i can stay and rot at home and do some chores like gg to the bank,visit my grandma,study for my btt tmrw and clean the house.duh...

ok i'm off to the supermarket to buy the ingredients for the sphegetti.eeehaa....!!!

2010-02-25T22:17:00.003+08:00

Had so much fun at the National Musuem.

We went to Quest for Immortality – The World of Ancient Egypt

http://www.nationalmuseum.sg/nms/nms_html/nms_content_6c.asp?content_template=4&content_id=23&tab_id=23&cine_id=2360&fest_id=0

Since last month i had the urge to go there because the artifacts are purely and exclusively brought in from Egypt.Secondly,its FREE!!.Entry for students are free or we have to pay 15 bucks.Lastly,ever since i watched Timberland feat Katy Perry-If We Ever Meet Again

aku mcm feeling feeling go museum.haha!!!

highly recommended!!dont miss it people.

pictures will be up on fb.heh.

so after our late lunch we teman Haha to school to take her stuff in the lockers.

mcm nak balik kampung....

and guess what,we reached thre around 620 the school was almost empty and we got locked up.

yeah in our 3 years of stay in mi this is the most adventurous time ever we spent in school.

tak boleh harap year 1 students blur like sotong.luckily the p.e tchers are at the stadium playing soccer.

'my cikguuu'(like how Haha like to say)came to my rescue.hehe!!

i mean our rescue.

actually ria's discovery that let us out.phewwww

luckily never kena lecture by my favourite cikguuu.hehe!!

overall an enjoyable outing =)

2010-02-11T00:12:00.002+08:00

omg!!

today is the last day i'll be teaching the kids.

now i feel reallllyyy sad because tomorrow their teacher will

be back from her maternity leave

and i had to leave them.

damn.

for the whole week i've been taking them

and now i've been emotionally attached towards them.

i hate this feeling man=( letting them go.oh!!their adorable faces and not

forgetting their antics and stubbornness.ahhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its true what an aquaintance of mine said.

saying that working as a teacher either in pre,kindergarden,primary etc

over time it will make us more attach towards the kids and we dont even feel like quitting the job.

i wish i could take them for another week and hope their teacher would not be

back like forever.......................

yeah ryte dream on.

oh i met a primary school of mine in that school.been in that school for weeks

now then she took the courage to speak to me.haha!!

she's under contract teaching unlike me still waiting for the damn results.

the wait is realllyyy torturous.

had i funny conversation ever.she remember me very well and

gundu me still asked her

'You ever taught me at ... primary school meh?'

'nolah i'm your classmate.you 21 ryte?same age mah.i look old meh?'

by this time i was so paiseh lah.she doesn't look old lah but its the only

thing i can think of.haha!!

oh whatever lah...............

gg to bed and hopefully the sadness would go away =(

2010-02-04T10:58:00.002+08:00

It looks like i'll be covering this teacher for two weeks.
I heard she had pregnancy complication.
even worst i heard rumors that the doctor could not detect the heartbeat of the baby.
I guess she's into her 6 month pregnancy.
Can u imagine,carrying that dear and fragile life in you for 6++ months then suddenly
no heartbeat.
must be depressing and hearbreaking.haiz.... =(
anyway I loveee adam lambert video esp this.
he looks cute in the vid but as u all noe he's gay..like wth!!!

2010-02-02T09:48:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was my off day since on weekends i've been working.

Went thrift hunting with mak cik ria

from redhill-MINDS

'cari orang2 dier'(inside joke)

to bukitbatok where memories lingers

then to upper bukit timah-Salvation Army to adam road -Island Creamery!!

we got a few treasures at a bargain price =)

i bought two items while that makcik got a few.

menggilerrrrr....

it's worth the trip.

next up:Karaoke session with the gals hehe!!

2010-01-25T18:45:00.005+08:00

Over the weekends,relatives from KL came down

Brought them to geylang and treated them

hajjah maimunah.

had a sumptuous meal before going to work.

Today's my off day so

we went to town to get my toyrus paycheck...

the amount was pathetic and i swear i'm not gg back again.

bought necklaces at forever21 and got a free Clinique sample kit thanks

to that wonderful promoter at Isetan.

been longing to try clinique products so having this sample kit is essentially...hehe.

about my weekend job i guess there's a reason for me to quit :(

won't spill the beans here though...

oh!i managed to watched The Proposal

starring Sandra Bullock and Ryan Reynolds.

speaking of ryan,he's damn cute i must say with that

hot bods and killer smile.hehe...

go watch :)

next paycheck: n97 mini or itouch???hmmm...

I think if I’ve learned anything about friendship, it’s

to hang in, stay connected, fight for them, and let

them fight for you. Don’t walk away, don’t be distracted, don’t be

too busy or tired, don’t take them for granted.

Friends are part of the glue that holds life and faith together.

Powerful stuff.

2010-01-22T19:44:00.003+08:00

some random things that cross my mind/to get off my mind

what is the true meaning of friendship?

someone please enlighten me.

i was thinking whether these have actually happen to me;

making me feel so insignificant and making me the last to noe about a good news,

not there to give me a listening ears

not forgetting times when u needed someone to talk to

i was thre giving u my best and truthful advice even when i've never been in ur shoes,

get jealous over the slightest bit of my achievements,

being self-centred etc.

thats not what i want in a friendship

seriously people where can i find a true friend

but thinking back

i'm so lucky

to have a wonderful family;my sisters,parents,grandparents,cousins and

not forgetting god

for now i guess its them who give me the strength to carry on with my life

damn i sound so emo

ahk whateverlah

watch this videos,they are so cute...

2010-01-18T18:34:00.002+08:00

the kids today are so evil.
they can't sit still and been making alot of noise.
soon i get high blood pressure.
seriously it takes alot of patience to tame these kids.

oh!!you guys should watch this movie which is based on the novel by best selling
author Nicholas Sparks.
especially with the hot/charming Channing Tatum acting in it.
I'm sooooo going to buy the book before watching the movie which opens in Feb in
the US.
I bet it takes forever for S'pore to show it.probably in March
Speaking of which,my eager and over enthu father came back from work telling me that
the A'levels results will be out either or the 3rd or 5th mar.
he told me he checked it on the moe website.like wth.
i bet he got nothing to do at work.blueh .___________.

2010-01-11T00:06:00.005+08:00

Last week had a relief teaching offer so i took it.

i swear i wasn't ready.i thot it was only an interview but it starts immediately.

i was wth!!!

no markers no pencil box no proper attire no experience etc....

but the experience is priceless...

taught the primary 1 kids and i swear they are like little angels all cute and small size

i feel like taking them home.

its abit tiring cos i have to raise my voice in class,tame the kids and went back late

since its the afternoon session

but its all worthwhile.

It makes me more passionate towards teaching.

Hopefully my A 'levels results allows me to get the route i always wanted

since young.

insyaallah :)

the job at toyrus was ok apart from not able to work with hamlau

it was tiring and over time it gets boring.

the pay was even pathetic but i made some new friends from different background

which was cool.

received my paycheck and heading to town later and tmrow to ape lagi shopping ahk...

hehe!!

my sis will be getting back her O levels results later.

i have faith in her and i noe she can make

siang malam pagy petang asyik mentelaah aje

kalah aku yg duduk a levels.kadang2 aku yg penat tengok dier

insyaallah she can make it.

u go sistaz.

ps.i miss school :(

2010-01-02T19:27:00.002+08:00

since working at the korean shop,my mind is full of korean songs

like wth!!

every minute, i will go behind the counter to change the music and turn up the volume.

how slack can my workplace be.

I'm so gonna miss the place and the people.

gained a vastfull of experience from my observation.

like 1 in 3 people that come into the shop have a longchamp bag duh so boring...no originality

and 1 in 2 people wear sluar katoks.

adoiii,mataku sakit banget...haha!!!

oh and i get to cuci mate especially on thurs when the budak-budak army book out.

all of them been carrying identical navy green bag with their botak heads..haha!!

can imagine how the mi boys will look like when serving their ns.whuahahah!!

2009 is a lovehate relationship may 2010 brings in more joyous occasion esp in March ;)

2009-12-24T11:22:00.002+08:00

Work is ok.sales is damn good since its the festive season

I love the people and the environment there.

The boss is from Korea and didn't i tell you that they are very nice.

How cool is that ;) the best work experience i ever had.

we can talk,sms or even slack abit...haha!!!

They ask me to stay till july but i had to decline.

so yeap leaving them at the end of this month

got some other commitments.

oh since its near my place,i keep seeing people whom i recognise whom its been ages since i saw them.

my primary/secondary school friends,teachers,actors etc.

god i'm so gonna miss the place....

still haven't get my pay but christmas sales are everwhere...

damn .___.

2009-12-10T23:38:00.003+08:00

just received an email from moe saying that

my application for the teaching attachment failed

screw them butttt

i can now relief in schools since they approve my relief teaching application =)

this week things have been looking great after those angsty moments.

got a job and grandpa operation went well,in no time he will recover.

alhamdulillah. =)

2009-12-07T19:07:00.002+08:00

I'm going craaaaazzzzyy!!!!!arggggggrgrrgr

I lost my $157 retainers which i barely get it a week ago.

I cried like mad.

ok,it was partly my fault.

the clever me go put the retainers in the tissue paper

instead of the proper container.

My father thought it was a rubbish threw it down the rubbish chute.

He went downstairs opened the rubbish chute and search through the rubbish in the bin.

now i feel bad because he got a cut on his fingers and he had to pay for the new retainers.

but still,who asked him tangan gatal and throw that tissue.

Lately,i get piss off over the slightest things.

the doctor for postponing my grandad's operation,the !#$$% aunty at the hospt acting sucha bitch, starhub interview made me wanting to cry etc. etc.

maybe the time of the month is coming.

over the weekend went to botanic gardens. shall upload the pixs sooneh

if there's an award for the most 'pangseh' person, i shall award it to someone who is seriously getting on my nerve...inferiority or lacks of confidence issues i guess.

i wonder what commitment this person have kalah prime minister aku rase.

sorry guys for reading this angsty post.

i just have to let it out.

sometimes life a bitch....i know.

so looooooooooooooong!!!

2009-12-03T23:24:00.004+08:00

that darn A's is finally over.

came across mr wong page at fb.

gave me a wake up call and kept me thinking about my future and life.

go read it.

anyhoooo...

Went for a job interview today.

what a disappointment.

most companies dont need people of my race to work for them.

like wth!!

i ask the interviewer 'isn't this a discriminatory act?'

without answering he proceed to the next question

in my heart,

'mcm mane mlyu nak maju'

i am aware that without a degree it's difficult to get a job especially for us.

klau ade pun jadi ape cikgu, chop passport pat checkpoint etc.

muke tu muke tuu jugak..haiz!

i write wat i see

just stating the facts!

Hopefully my perception of these will change over time.

After that go visit my grandad at the hospital.

seeing him in pain really brought me to tears.

i'm very sensitive especially towards elderly.

He complaint saying that everyday take the injection very painful, his thigh hurts,

when he said to the nurse 'pain pain' i teared, the nurses feed him too harsh,

staying at the hospital all alone at night in a room is boring...

Seriously,the house feels quiet without his ramblings and crappings.

haiz.

i'm hoping for the best for his operation and a speedy recovery =(

insyallah.amin.

2009-11-24T13:29:00.003+08:00

online shopping never felt better than this.

good bargain for a brand new piece of clothes.

i need $$$$ to indulge myself with more clothes as

my wardrobe is soso pathetic.

when i have my own house i shall build a walk-in wardrobe

just like that heineken advertisement.sweet =)

but to lead such a luxurious life i need $$$ again!

sian.

over the weekend went expo mph book sale.

bought a few books with the intention to bury myself with books

after the bloody A's.

apart from that,i'm going to look for a part time job if i have no luck with the

teaching attachment,enrol myself with courses and going on a holiday

wah!!so many things to do.can't wait!!

2009-11-19T18:09:00.003+08:00

damn 2012 a waste of my time and money

i fell asleep in the middle and the in the end

disaster after disaster strike earth

just end the damn world lah

why show volcanic eruption,tsuanami,earthquake,flood etc.

total boredom.

the last part was like titantic,final destination watever crap.

they drag and drag the movie

now i know why the total duration is 2hrs++

someone's acting like a 'bitch'.

their hobby of letting one's feeling low is so magnificant.

my gut feeling tells me to stop hanging around with this 'bitch'/'kaki bodek'.

'should not hang around with someone who

like to see/bring you down'

great advice.

enuf said.

(dear readers don't make wild guesses or accusation to whoever i'm talking about)

2009-11-17T20:41:00.002+08:00

Can't wait to see the meteor tonight at 12 midnight.

someone said it looks like a shooting star.

how i wish it is

i'm just trying my luck and make a wish

upon seeing the meteor haha!!crazy i noe

but who knows there is a shooting star among the meteor

haha!!

Oh!! i've won One Republic cd thenks to power 98.

i know its not a very big deal

but i didn't expect it considering i'm always out of luck

so i randomly sms power 98

i almost fell asleep when the dj said out my name

the next minute the dj called me.

haha!!wasn't expect it =)

watching 2012 tomrw.

woohoo!!

2009-11-13T19:40:00.003+08:00

after 3 years of burying/slogging myself with school works

its takes 5 days just 5 to end it all.

ridiculous.

shall not spending time thinking what happen next

nor do i want to think about the results

its over.what's done is done =)

next paper in two weeks time.

in the meantime its movie time!!!yeah!

2012 paranomal activity

here i come!!

2009-10-16T19:14:00.003+08:00

Last few days spending my school days in MI.

After studying there for 2 and a half years,

i'll be graduated from the school on

22.9.10.How sad can that be.

I'll swear i'll cry upon hearing the graduation song on that day =(

I'll miss the school,the teachers,cleaners,bookshop aunty,security uncle,canteen food and my FRIENDS.

Filled with Bitter sweet memories

never make me regret to be in MI

...

Received the MOE Teaching Attachment application letter.

I guess this is an opportunity not to be missed =)

...

Today the school did something that touched me.

they gave the Pre-u 3 a bag filled with oreo cookies,milo 3 in 1 and Jacob biscuit.haha!

for us to munch when studying.so sweet lah

I think MI is the only school that did that.

I'm so touched n it give me a sense that if i did not give my all for the A's it'll make me feel bad.

Will be gg to little india in while to get the feel of Deepavalli..haha!!

2009-10-03T12:05:00.002+08:00

that's what we gotta do for A's =)

2009-09-30T16:47:00.000+08:00

so telll me why i still have two big eye bags even though i sleep

like a pig huh?

make me look like a panda.kns

2009-09-29T17:06:00.001+08:00

Last paper for prelim was a killer.

What are the teachers thinking when they set the paper.damn!

to relieve the stress we watched 4Phobia @ GV.A Thai horror movie consists of four different stories.

for me the show was not that scary and among all the four stories,i extremely like the last one which is a comedy.super hillarious.overall its worth my money.so go watch.

and thai guys are so cute and hot.i don't mean those construction thai workers in s'pore lah.

seriously they are way cuter and hotter than S'pore guys(except for my hotstuff =) hehe....

Caught SI last weekend and i'm rooting for Faizal Isa http://idol.mediacorptv.sg/blog.htm

and Mae http://idol.mediacorptv.sg/blog.htm go watch her rendition of My Boo.You go guys and ignore those unreasonable remarks/comments from the judges.especially ken.He thinks he can be like simon cowell.In fact simon is way better then ken although he give laser comments it is still very constructive and well understood by both the viewers and the contestants.bluek!

2009-09-25T01:03:00.001+08:00

The prelims are over at least for this week.

Next week i'm left with Sastera =(

MOB was freaking tedious.wth!

the standard of the paper was set too high and most of the time

i wrote nonsensical argument...

history questions on the other hand was predictable.

but i wonder if i meet the question requirements.heh!!

i almost dozed off while writing,how ridiculous.

ard 20 mins before the paper ends then i start to kanchiong.

the result for studying at the eleventh hour.

if it was A's can say byebye liao.

oh!i witnessed a classic action by someone after the paper.

haha!!will not elaborate.

After paper,headed down with bestie to JP.

had lunch at pizzahut and gosh their services is like shit!!

we had to called the stupid waiter/waiteress thrice to ask for our drinks and soups

while the customer that came later then us got theirs as soon as they ordered it.

we were fuming mad and lose out appetite.kns!

should have eat at long john or ayam penyet Ria.

This weekend raya visiting will resume.

hehe!!!more green packets.lailai.haha!!!

i try to enjoy the visits but at the back of my mind its the A's lingering and lurking

keep me thinking about it.=(

2009-09-19T23:36:00.000+08:00

Wishing all my Muslim friends

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir & Batin!

get it over and done with then can continue mugging for the A's

hehe!! =)

2009-09-18T03:26:00.000+08:00

Woke up exactly at 9 with the intention to attend Sastera class

but while waiting for their messages i dozed off till 11.30.

see,made me wait till i got bored and went back to sleep.

haha!!the whole clique didn't attend i wonder what cikgu will say...hmmm.

Will put aside the books tmrw

and will do spring cleaning to the huz and grandma huz too.

wah!!mati ahk.

not only tat will head down to Geylang with the momster and sis.

Initially i was comtemplating whether to buy baju raye or not since economic crisis mah

but after they say they lelong the price like crazy ape lagi tomrw go there and find one ler.

Every raye when we go visiting people will ask me 'u're the second daughter ahk'

"no!i'm the eldest."

wah!!every raye without fail sia not even raye lah like at some family function.

i feel like bringing the tape recorder.irritating sia.

being 20 and doesn't look one is fine but keep answering the same old question is pissing me off.

why oh why!!

A conversation with auntie.(translated)

Her:last time when you're a baby so fat and cubby.now where all the fats go?
Me:really me.baby fats mah.

Her:too thin not nice.tis raye eat alot and put on weight.

I totally agree with her.

So this raye i will stuff myself with ketupat,lontong,rendang,cookies and watever delicacies they serve me...atleast make me gain 2kg i'll be happy hehe!!

ps: i miss my bestie and cousin =( hope to see them real soon.

can't wait!!

2009-09-09T17:22:00.002+08:00

I'm angry at myself,the bloody sonofthebitch and the police.Why??

I'm angry at myself for not listening to my intuition which i find it resourceful and 99.99% true.alwayz...

if i had,i would already capture that sonofthebitch face and make him the MOST Wanted man in JW!

I'm angry at that sonofthebitch for doing such an indecent act and many had bcm his victim including me.

I'm angry basically at the authority for failing to catch that criminal aka sonofthebitch over the years.

This ongg crime had been committed for 5/6 years but still the criminal is at loose.

I noe its not easy to catch that sonofthebitch but at least step up the security at the area,educate the school kids etc.kate je got the authority,got brain think like one lah.

I feel like starting up my own watchgroup rather than depending on the authority!@#$%
during this holy month i shall refrain myself from cursing =)I'll recruit people like shalindran,yus,hayati etc. basically those who have their own strength to help me catch that sonofthebitch.i'm still listing the possible ppl.

To conclude,be wary of your surrounding ppl and do what ur heart tells you.

I think i start the day on the wrong foot :(

!@#$%^&*&*()(%

2009-09-06T23:30:00.001+08:00

The paper was manageable other than time constrain.

I hope to get at least an E.haha!pathetic i noe but its an achievement for me k.

After the paper,the talk really bought my mood down.cb.nb!!##$#

Being given a warning from the principal for no apparent reasons is no joke.

Its so unfair.i shall not elaborate further but one thing for sure

I'm not so lucky unlike some people who good luck always befall on them.always...

Now i'm the bad guy.weee...

Although my mood was dampened,i managed to uplive it when we girls headed to Geylang.

Windowshopped and breakfast with the clique.

saw a few ex-hyss students and those mats and minahs with tattoo/piercing all over their body.

what a disgrace.ade hati nak raye pulak tuu...

saw tis black baju kebaya and i'm so tempted to buy it.maybe malam raye i go again

with the folks.hehe!!

School holidays still need to come bck to school for extra lesson.boring :(

IH,SEA and Sastera....haiz

2009-08-24T19:24:00.000+08:00

The principal talk in the morning really encouraged me.

I strive to do the very best,give all i can and face the fears ahead.

I recommend you to watch 'Facing the Giants' on Youtube.

It'll open your mind and and heart to not give up in life

cheers! =)

2009-08-24T00:02:00.000+08:00

The fasting month finally arrived.How time flies.Its going to be the end of August with Sept in tow

and prelim 2 is coming.gosh!i'm so not ready :(

the spirit of celebrating raya is slowly deteriorating.

Anyway,on Friday we caught J.I.GOE and

Channing Tatum is hot and cute and have very nice bods.hehe!

raging hormones i guess.haha!!

the weekends was unproductive.distraction everywhere.

so long people.

mug.mugging.muggers

2009-08-15T15:41:00.001+08:00

Tonnes of stories to pen it down but i didn't know where to start from.

Andersen ice-creams thanks to Hayati and Ria,roadtrip with Azie,Fafa and Ria,inline skating is fun butt

had a backache after that.i'm aging =(

and revenge for Azie for making me panic after i thot i lost that history resource package.

jage kau satellite =)

My boring life revolve around schoolworks.day and night keep thinking about the A's.

how pathetic is that.

I thot inferiority just engulf her.hmmm...

2009-08-03T22:05:00.001+08:00

I feel so old after turning 20.

Now i'm in the twenties.no more belasan tahun :(

Oh well i'm looking forward with my life and all.

Can't wait to see where my life would lead me.

Bring it on!haha!

Thanks for the birthday wishes and presents people

luv ya =)

On Saturday met up with bestie we headed down to vivo catched

Hangover.Cheap humor and lots of body part exposure mind you its only NC-16

They should make it M-18.Window shopping then headed home sweet home.

Sunday,its a family affair for the birthday celebration.

The folks bought Tom n Jerry cake with mum saying i look like Tom.

do i really look like tom???NO!!!

Above all,i am thankful for having such good families and friends.

Thanks to Allah for letting me celebrate my birthday for another year.

Keeping me safe and healthy.

Appreciate life people.life is short.make it worthwhile and do deeds ;)

On a happier note,on my home from school,an ITE guy was humming/singing raya song.

i find it hilarious.the bus was quiet and his humming could be heard

4/5 passenger away from me.hahahaha!!

the fasting month not yet come he already started singing.its like tmrw raye.cheh.

it seems that this guy can't wait to celebrate raya.

entah puase entah tidak.hehe!!

2009-07-25T16:08:00.001+08:00

School was so mundane.

i might as well study at home at my own comfort.

stupid timetable!!arggg!

Prelim 1 results was atrocious.

this time i told my father don't bother going for the parents meet

a waste of time

for 3 years its the same advice and results

its like being recorded and being replayed.

racial harmony day was so merepek.

i did the racial harmony dance and

i swear dancing is not my forte.

give me something adventurous but not dancing plz.
met up with the long time buddy.
chat over desserts

catch up with what's been happening in our life.

OH!i can't wait for monday.

i'll be doing inline skating for PE.yessa!

finally something useful for PE.
and i can't wait for G.I JOE.
somewhat similar like Transformer.

2009-07-19T15:26:00.002+08:00

seriously i'm getting paranoid/hysteria about the H1N1 thingy
after hearing the school had 3 confirmed cases.
and i don't think the school had any intention of closing it any sooner.

oh!and the next time someone press the bell look through the peep hole first.
apparently,there's this rumor going around there's this
old lady going door to door selling keropoks..
and if you never buy anything from her..hehe she's going to put
che pon(like pontianak lah.something like tat) at ur huz
how true the story i wasn't sure.but i'm telling you
the rumor is spreading very fast.
talked about informal communication.
haha!that's random
n tis morning my grandmama came back from the market telling me
that tis old lady from indonesia brought along a small child.
ha all the makciks and neneks are talking about this rumour at the market.
funny sia!haha!!

2009-07-09T20:50:00.004+08:00

Its the last prelim paper
and we celebrate it by watching the movie.
i'm so in lup with Shia Leblouf.
though i didn't understand certain part of the story
its still the best action pack movie.
and and megan fox is very pretty lah
i don't understand why people speculate that she's a man.
And you know what,i feel like buying transformer figurines
especially optimus prime and bumblebee.hehe.

yesterday,after watching michael jackson
memorial service i was in tears.
especially when jennifer hudson sang 'will you be there' and
his daughter,Paris's declaration.
it touched my heart.
i'm saddened with the loss although i'm not
a big huha fans.
he may left us
but his legacy,music and moonwalk
will always be remembered.

2009-06-29T13:39:00.003+08:00

biz paper 1 is over!
i swear if its the real A'level
i'll die.confirm plus chop no hope
bye uni :(
luckily its prelim.still got time.i think so.hehe!!
woke up in the wee hours just to memorise the whole chunk of notes.
and you know what, i forgot all of it.heh not all lah most of it
fed-up sia.getting very senile this few days
the H1n1 flu is getting from bad to worst.
i heard over there're600++ confirmed cases.
scary shit...
gotta study history.stupid war/conflict..fight fight fight
i got to study why the fought.2pit-.-
hmm...should i study in school tmrw??

2009-06-24T20:32:00.002+08:00

went to the dentist and she said i can take off
the braces after 3 more visits....Yessa!!!
bye bye braces...
I remembered during my primary school days
I HATE going to the dentist.
as i was waiting for my turn
i got stomach ache and the urge to go to the toilet.
Over time the feeling fade off cos i've been to the dentist since i was Sec 1
till now.
surprisingly,i like the smell of it.
hehe!weird i noe.
after that i accompanied cousin to Queensway
since i was out might as well go.
if notshe keep haunting me.
haiya looks like the hols won't be extended
bacin :(

2009-06-19T16:20:00.002+08:00

beware ppl upon entering mlaysia

you guys can't make the slightest mistake EVER like

not wearing your seatbelt,or ur father or someone

forgot to turn on any of the car lights.

the customs there will pick up

these slightest mistakes

all in the name of bribery..

hmmm..thats what happen to my father.

fool the custom there cos they initially thot my father was gg to

take out the money but instead his licence.

.corrupted.

not only my father but

my friend's father also experienced it.

i thot malay muslims can't accept bribe don't they???

hmmm...

anyway,

the initial was plan KL

but after much eveluating and coaxing from the sis and aunt

i plan to overnite at cousin place at JB

there'll be bbq and there'll be lots of seafoods....yessa

and sort of cousin reunion lah

if i go KL the journey will an 8hrs trip to and fro

and i bet i can't study cos there'll be so many shopping trips.

as if at JB i can.here and there i will open the freaking notes lah..hehe!!

so far the revision for prelims is so slow and NOT steady.

haven't even touch my SEA and Lit.

now i'm struggling for time.

plz plzplz let there be an extended hols

pls god save me!!

with that i'm off to pack the bag

2009-06-16T13:47:00.003+08:00

@ Seoul Garden

Yesterday the whole sastera went to Seoul garden at Causeway Point.
It was supposely gg to be at Taka but apparently cikgu wanted to change the venue.
Thanks Cikgu for the treat :)
one after another the teachers left us.so not fair :(
a disheartening moment when we hugged and kissed cikgu goodbye.
Raya we'll see her again.hehe!

After our stomach were filled,we cam-whored.haha!
When cikgu came to our table we had some casual talks.
The first question she asked was friendship.
ok i saw another fiasco coming.
this time i wonder about what?who?how it happen?
Apparently,she heard it from a reliable source.
the whole table went silent.before azie breaks it
its about someone who we didn't expect.
shit lah.its the last year in MI and all these nonsensical accusations arise
totally a waste of my time.
apparently,the words that're coming from (unmentionable)are 90% lies and 10% truth.
I CAN'T BE BOTHERED!
asshole

2009-06-14T10:29:00.002+08:00

If Today Was Your Last Day By Nickelback

You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars
Regardless of who you are
So do whatever it takes
'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life
Let nothin' stand in your way
Cause the hands of time are never on your side

2009-05-27T18:14:00.002+08:00

The end of Geepee and MTLang paper.

Guess what?!i'm gg to flunk

haha!!!

never get to finish geepee paper 2

oh...!i'm so screwed up.

Aniwaes last weekend i attended the last wedding for the year.

i break the record for having 4 weedings in a year and

coincidently all are my cousins.

Last week wedding,was the best i guess.

why?cos i got to meet up with my cheena relatives plus cheena cousins

those from the cheena peranakan side.

the first time in my entire life.

if were to see thm on the streets,mampos i wouldn't acknowledge them.

And i'm so inspired to get a bike license after seeing this lady rode her bike at the wedding

cool shit!!

2009-05-18T08:30:00.002+08:00

Well,yesterday i was feeling so enthu.
So what i did?
I digged out my SBQ notes in an attempt to complete the revision in a few hours.
But i was so wrong.
It took me a day to finish that bloody revision.
Not only that,i was feeling very semangat that i printed out a study timetable.
Wrote down things i want to do but end up not following any of it...pathetic i know.haha!
Today,hopefully i spent my time wisely.
Apart from studying,later will go out in search for the birthday presents.
I hate when it comes to buying birthday presents.
Not only that,i'm broke too:(
Maybe later go buy money plant...k tat's lame.

2 days to American Idol finale.
its obvious that Adam will be the ultimate winner.
who cares if he's gay,he's very versatile when he sings.
kris??no way!
can't wait!!can't wait!!
oh god why i can't say these words when it comes to exam.
especially gp in 9 more days... :(

2009-05-16T19:58:00.002+08:00

The MIOO is finally over!

I think those who paid 10 bucks doesn't make their money worth.

why?cos the performance was not a big huha and the food can't be compared with the guests.

But you can't expect that much.

fortunately for us,helpers we got to feast out the buffet hehe!

The MI Carnival was ok i guess.i especially like the music they played most...haha!!

speaking of which,there were also live performances by talented millennians

The cliques have leftover coupon worth 10/20 bucks.

they can't seem to finish using it cos most of the stalls had sold out their stuff.

At least i bought a Levi's pouch worth 5 bucks...hoho!!!

Apart from that,hayati,azie and me got to take pictures with mr lim for the last time.

i almost got me a teary eyes....haiz :(

Overall the day was well spent with my beloved friends :))

2009-05-14T19:14:00.002+08:00

During IRP,Mr George Lim shocked us with a piece of news.

It's his last formal lesson with 07A2

cos he'll be leaving MI for River Valley.

The class was shocked.I was shocked.So the rumour is true afterall.

Strumming his guitar,he sang David Cook

Always Be My Baby.

we cried,i cried

A very disheartening moment

he should not left us now-this moment not until graduation

After 3 years, a bond was forged.

We feel emotionally attached to him...

after the June hols his absence will be greatly felt.

when i heard the song an emotion of sadness fills me

Why!!!life's is so...unfair

haiz

the stupid video just don't want to appear

damn!!!

2009-05-11T20:49:00.002+08:00

its been awhile cos i'm too lazy to type
so...busy procrastinating(everyday),
weddings(one after another) and
renovations(3 damn weeks)
i'm drained out..left with so little energy

i can't figure out the truth and the lies
& can't be bothered also :)

2009-05-01T11:15:00.003+08:00

behind these smiles
lies a thousand thoughts about the Big A's

management test was like ****
i had no idea what i wrote.
lengthy but superficial.
A' is in 6 months time and i wasn't ready...
damn it.what the hell am i doing in MI???
isn't it too late to complain now??!!
hearing the peeps got a place in NUS
making me extremely stress out.
considering i had no other commitments
apart from studies
it still pose a challenge lah
arggggggggggggggggggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-04-21T22:18:00.002+08:00

You people should go Youtube and
watch Britain's Got Talent 2009
look out for Susan Boyle and Flawless.
try to upload the videos here but can't.
I'm so captivated by their electrifying performances!!!
even Simon Cowell did a standing ovation.

2009-04-21T13:52:00.003+08:00

Life's a bitch...

that's a fact

but i got to move on :)

2009-04-19T11:46:00.002+08:00

I'm swearing all the vulgarities in the world...
fcuk!!fcuk!@#$$%^U&%^#%^#$#@%^%$&^^%*(
Why??
because basically i lost my new ez-link card.
barely a week i got it and now it vanished
for the 4th time...BLOODY 4TH TIME!!
not only that ,i also
lost the maroon cardholder with $$$$ in it.
ARGGG!!so angry with myself!
how careless i could be!!
the day started so well
and the next thing i know
luck wasn't on my side at the end of the day.
i doubt no kind soul would return it :(
seriously turn me off arggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FCUK!

2009-04-17T20:51:00.002+08:00

So i got dental appointment today
and every time(twice only lah) on the way there,
ria and me met this braces-hair-very-long guy in the train.
all thanks to me RIA! :)
whuahahhaha!!
we became abit mentel and ria got excited
he's cute in some way but cannot lawan my eyecandy lorh.
Tmrw lunch @ SG with the MCS members
Crew members reunion...
too bad,azie can't make it :(

2009-04-13T22:32:00.002+08:00

Awesome song...current obsession yaw!!!

"I never thought Id.. be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
And you came in.. and knocked me on my face
Feels like in Im a race
but I already won first place

I never thought Id.. fall for you as hard as I did
(as hard as I did, yeah)
You got me thinkin about our life our house our kids
Every morning I look at you and smile
cause boy you came around and you knocked me down.. knocked me down"

2009-04-08T17:40:00.002+08:00

tmrw is the release of A level
PW results
i'm hoping for the best for
my group members and myself...
...
On the way from school,
there's tis small girl in the bus ard 3 -4 years.
She turned behind and i smiled at her.
Instantaneously, she said 'eee...gigi tak cantik' (teeth not nice)
i was like wth!!i noe it was my braces...
Her mom scolded her and said sorry to me
I didn't take it as an insult/to heart
Its just the way an adolescent would act.
I was laughing all the way home.
oh well, she didn't know that soon i'll have
nice straight teeth plus a colgate smile
hahaha!!!
...
captivating case study;
there're just ppl who are being too paranoid.
and then there're some who look at me as if i'm at fault...
but too bad its just one side of the story.
without contextual knowledge /cross reference.
without checking its provenance for its reliability.
'i'm impressed'

'i'm smitten with...'

2009-03-30T22:47:00.001+08:00

~I see your dirty face

High behind your collar

What is done in vain

Truth is hard to swallow

So you pray to God

To justify the way you live a lie

Live a lie

Live a lie~

2009-03-29T11:11:00.002+08:00

AB was a success ytd...yesssa!

I so gonna miss the crew members as well as the casts.

The acquaintants i've made,inside jokes,songs ect...

It's sad that they had to take down the set layout as it marks the end of AB.

I don't regret having to join this production.

It gave me a whole lot new experiences and its worth my whole week...

:))

i've tonnes of homework need to be completed by Mon!

argggg...:(

there're no surprises left

2009-03-26T23:05:00.002+08:00

FATIGUE

homework not done,revision put to a halt,eye bags bla bla bla....

This week i've been reaching home at 10pm thanks to AB practice.

Tomorrow will be our last practice...yoohoo!!!

Anyhoo,during MT,out of the blue,cikgu made us do something that we didn't expect.

I didn't think its coincidental but rather because of the situation.

I think the whole of MI knows about it...

But what can i say...if 'picture paint a thousand words' then 'actions speaks louder than words...'

agree???

Putting that aside, i was motivated by mr tan's talk

& this quote

will be embedded in my head from now till the A's

"to get what we've never had

we must do

what we never done before"

2009-03-22T16:45:00.002+08:00

Sweet...

going back to school tmrw..

yee-haaa!!

the hols was so pack that i 've yet to complete the hols assignments.

Next week will be the last week for Awang Belanga practice.

No,i'm not the main cast but i'm just the backstage crew

together with the peeps.

I enjoy every moment of the practice especially their songs which make me wanna dance along.

19.3.09

expect the unexpected :)

2009-03-14T21:13:00.002+08:00

Now i know what's my problem;
When i'm studying,my mind tend to skive off and the best part,i can't sit still
Managed to keep still for only 10 mins then i'm off the seat to the kitchen searching for something to munch
then the telly aura pull me in.
haiyo...
now i'm thinking
to ask my sis to tie me to the chair like in some mental hospital.
great

The march holidays finally kicks in but i've got tonnes of things to complete & attend.
Homeworks,extra history class & NUS talk...
some of the peeps aren't in S'pore...they're enjoying themselves overseas
and i'm jealous!

Yesterday,to mark the last day of term 1 the pre u 3 had their seminar
super !@#$% boring..firsly,i wasn't motivated after attenting the seminar and secondly the activity was like toot!
however,i was impressed at how they could define our personality.
not 100%but at least 98%...
they can become fortune teller if they were retired....
07A2 also build up the class bond thanks to Vertical Limits,one of the many games...
and new friendship start to bloom and we begin to assimilate ourselves with one another.
that was cool shit!!
Apart from all the fun,i lost my voice today due to yesterday shouting of
'PUSH!PUSH!'
Its like giving birth but the thing we are all pushing isn't baby but legs...
hairy and smelly legs....haha!!
i laughed so hard till my abs was in pain with tears in the eyes.
Its all worth it :)

Anyway,the parents meet was like always...
talk talk talk....
grade was not that great :(
ohh...so when it will be great??by midyear?prelim?A levels?

Then i met up wit Azie and Hafiz before heading to NTU for the NIE talk
Potential teacher is on the way.
The campus was damn holy cow gigantic
And i wonder how am i suppose to survive without all the familiar faces and environment.
I hate changes!
The talk was very beneficial and helpful though.
We now had a clearer picture of what to expect.
It motivate me even more to outshine my potential
InsyaAllah.
Saw plentiful of ex MI as well as the current students.
We were like yow wass'up...
No doubt the previous batch of MI students did really well for their A's
when we asked them...
and i'm quite intimidated by their results.

After the tour ended, i met up with Xinyi to Suntec for the body shop sale.
The convention centre was damn bloody crowded with human traffic.
Most of them heading to the IT show.
When it was pack,we tend to get shove off or push.
These 'ohh- too- overly-sentitive' gals kept asking me not to push them
EH sorry sikit...if you don't want to get pushed next time don't go to these cheapstake sales lah sister
Kena abit also cannot...
In fury,i shouted behind them...
Its a domino effect.
people behind me pushed me so what to do?stand there and use my mighty strengths & push them back huh??
bimbos do bimbo-tics acts
!@#$$%^
siaw chahh-boar!!
errggg....

Nothing more to write..i'm off to being tied to the chair.
Wish me well readers :))